I'm sitting here in the production center, the place which over the last few months has basically served as my second home. For the last eleven hours I've been transferring all my hard work (photos, videos, etc) from the school's computer to mine.
While waiting for the files to transfer I decided to see what films I could find on YouTube and I got lucky with Disney's Mulan. I assume that you've all seen it before, and if you haven't, you ought to watch it (because I'll spoil it for you if you keep reading).
I think as adults it's too easy for us to pass off material meant for children as, "meaningless for us". If we still struggle with things as adults that troubled us as kids, it is equally possible for things that helped, motivated and encouraged us as kids to do the same for us still.
Children's stories ought never to be taken for granted.
When I got to the part of the film where Mulan is found out by the army and they spare her life but leave her on the mountain, I found myself sympathizing with her. I knew (I thought) exactly what she felt...not knowing which way to go because everything she had worked so hard for - poured her life into - was no longer an option. She felt lost, unsure whether she should go home or follow after the army or just sit there on the side of the road.
That's exactly where I've been for the last few weeks since graduation. I've been wrestling with all the things I want to do with my life, now that I'm "free" from school and just as seriously I've been unable to come to any conclusions. I've spent a lifetime "doing" school. A student's is the only life I've ever known, and now, I have to make new decisions. It's really difficult and rather scary.
Inspiration found me as I watched what happened next in Mulan's story. While trying to figure out which way she should go or what to do, the Huns (the army she had just helped destroy) resurrected itself and went after the Imperial city and the Emperor.
It forced her hand. Her circumstances took away her time to think and only gave her the option to act. She went after the Huns which turned out to be the right decision (obviously, I mean this is a Disney film we're talking about). What inspired me so much about this was the fact that when pressed hard enough she just acted on what she knew was right with herself and right to do.
I believe that deep down in the darkest corner of me, I really do know what I want next in my life and the only thing stopping me from going after it is all the thinking I do. I've been over-thinking and over-analyzing every option trying to make the smartest and best decision when all I really need to do is pick something and go for it.
Yes it is my life. Yes this is a big, somewhat serious decision. And yes, everything will be fine if I just pick a direction and go with it. The question I'm left with now is, "Do I have the courage to do what is necessary....to start moving and trust I'll instinctively make the right move?"
It takes courage to live life....ya?
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